24 hours more...
the luggage are all packed...
money changed...
air tix booked and confirmed...
farewell dinners all done with...

Shanghai, here i come!

我想,
我该对你说声抱歉,
要不是有人或事伤了我,
我不会记得 有你在守候,
等待着, 为我疗伤…

to someone who knows who you are...
if u're reading my blog...
i guess i owe u one...
better to say it now b4 i go off for my oiap...
yeah.

anyways,
the preparations are goin on rather smoothly.
bought many barang barang le,
shampoo, moisturizer, T3 & 02 Skin
(haha, hao duo dou dou no more!)
sweaters, cardigans, even that thingy which jay wears in secret

many people asked me,
what r my feelings abt goin for such a long time.
"Would i miss my family?
my friends?
my house?
all the material comforts that i enjoyed?
the unofficial status as prince at home?"

well, i suppose there has to be a time when i grow older and more mature
despite my many misgivings,
my many objections,
my fears, worries,
i guess there has to be a time whereby i have to grow up,
one way or another.
so,
i guess i have to treat this as a learning experience ba.
one that would, hopefully,
prepare me mentally for that dreaded 2 yrs thingy.
shucks.

have farewells slated for the entire weekend le.
but somehow,
i feel very odd goin for these farewells.
make me feel as if i'm going away for good.
choy choy!
shall treat this as a lonnnggggg holiday-cum-working trip ba.
haven been to shanghai anyways.
nor stayed at (or even worked at)
XX company.
[teacher says cannot anyhow say the place where i'm working at,
later kena sued or dunno wad.
so i use XX company lorx. :P]

and to A,
dun worrie,
i wun talk to u in that chinese accent when i come back.
i still haf my angmoh blood in me, okie.
:)

but to loyal readers of my blog,
whoever u are,
thanks.
i shall continue posting my blog entries whenever i get the chance to
i shall rant abt XX company,
abt XX's supervisors, mgrs & what have u.
5 months.
5 months before i head back home,
hopefully,
more mature,
more cool,
and yet,
still the same old me.

alright,
shall stop blogging.
a long post today.
:)

有人说,
一次告别,
天上就会有颗星,
永熄灭

took this off desmond's blog.
found it to be rather thought-provoking.
i have been looking at the skies,
and have not seen many stars at night.
might it becos i have too many goodbyes in my life?

我们这一班...

TB26, Year 1, 2005...

TB24, Year 2, 2005...

and last but certainly not the least,
TB11, Year 3- Marketing, 2007

those were the days...

the sky was quiet
fluffs of thick white clouds
held out the sun
a cotton field in the sky

the ledge felt cool
a perfect view at 22 storeys
looking so serene
so ordinary and so peaceful

the light breeze
brushing skin and hair
tickling caressing
now the sounds grew distinct

a baby wailing
an elderly couple laughing
a passing car
the chattering of mahjong tiles

a smile
a silent chuckle
and the eyes closed
the leap

the journey down
seemed like eternity
the wind
like a futile resistance

a sickening crack
the pavement rough
and cold
like this cruel world

splitting pain
palpitating shaking
but still all smiles
the flame extinguished

and a lifeless body
in a pool of crimson
like a carnation
among a bed of roses

such calm
oblivious to the commotion
tranquility

at last

adapted from thomas's blog. thanks bro!