But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
Not in my usual blogging style to start off with song lyrics, but thought that it might be quite apt to do so- to pave the way for what I'm gonna post ahead.
people have been wishing me good luck for national service, telling me that it'll be just fine, that it'll be a breeze, that it'll pass by in a blink of an eye (alright, 2 blinks of an eye, since it's 2 years). I'm gonna miss lots of people in sg though- it's like, it's different from the time i went to shanghai for my six months attachment period. yes, i can book out on the weekends if i don't get guard duty, but seriously, after all these years, i've learnt that what happens in theory may never happen in real life. =) and also, not to hope for too much or invest too much feelings into something- the feeling of failure somehow always gets multiplied if that something never comes through. i suppose all those years of playing final fantasy have made me model my character into something like squall leonhart. for good or for bad, you decide.
herewith, all the thanks i want to extend to:-
1. To kisaki- my dear BFF! Thanks for being so open-minded and liberal! and for letting me suan u all the time and still not get angry after all of it unlike some of my friends, who would do so at the slightest provocation! thanks for not being homophobic and everything when i shared with u my 'polaroid moments', and all the online manga that you've recommended me to, especially JJR and ST, though sad to say, when i read them again, there's no kick le. u have to find some more hard-core ones by the time i book out 2 weeks from this saturday! =) and of cos, for introducing me to the world of cosplay & visual kei, where i got to know my shou-hubby and reita-bf! :p and as always, for being there when i needed someone to sms/talk with!
2. To alvin- my dear EEEEEEEE friend! haha, although we only got to know each other recently, i ca safely say that our friendship is definitely deifnitely much stronger than the time spent getting to noe each other. =) it's been a very enjoyable time going out with u, despite u calling me a qian jing & spoilt brat in yr blog. :p i wanted to say this yesterday night, but forgot to say it, so I'll say it now- my nickname back in secondary school was daomingsi. :p so now u know why. =) although i was slightly puzzled as to why u wanted to know me at first (through phoebe), I'm very glad that it wasn't the wrong decision in the end (to know you). remember to keep in contact always, and jiayou for your engineering course! i know u can do it- becos i would have failed in the first semester in your course. kanpatei!
3. To the FOS gang: kevin, tricia, johnsten, junan- thanks for lightening up my poly days (and not to mention, my post-poly lives) with so much joy, fun and laughter, even during our marketing days. to let u guys noe, i was actually very unwilling to be in the Business Studies diploma at first- that explains all the LT door slamming & being emo-momo all throughout my days at ngee ann. but knowing u guys certainly made the BS diploma a more bearable one. thanks alot!
3a. To kevin- my fellow partner in crime! we haven't catched up for gossip sessions and bitching sessions for ages! think the last time was at the tcc@ps? find some time and do some serious catching up! i've LOADS to tell u, some of which subject matter can be HIGHLY controversial. :P
3b. To tricia- my good friend and bitching partner! life's definitely goinna be more boring and dull without all the guys in FOS around rite?? :p wait for us! and in the meantime, enjoy shan's company! jiayou for your studies in SIM!
3c. To johnsten- yum cha on our first book out!
4. To phoebe- my camwhoring buddy! definitely i'm going to miss our camwhoring sessions all over singapore- raffles place, the cathay, just to name a few. we shld like, make a xie zhen ji one of these days, when i have HAIR! :p thanks for being there on super long msn conversations when i'm feeling down and emo-momo. mus help me take care of XX when i'm inside tekong, ok? =)
Gosh. this post is getting longer and longer. and i'm barely halfway through. bear with me. more people coming up. :)
5. To TJ & Jesse- i've kept these words in my heart til now. i guess that there's no other more apporpirate time to say it to u guys other than now- though i'm not too sure whther you guys will be able to read it or not. i would be lying if i said that the 2 of you all were probably the best friends i had (and most porbably will have)- Cat High would not have been the same without you guys. but somehow, there's this rift that started to form between me and the 2 of u- i dunno if it was the Os, the JC/Poly route, you guys' earlier enlistement, the ruth saga, my overseas attachment, or somehow, all of those coupled together. i definitely, DEFINITELY treasured the times we had, and i hope, more than anything, that we could return to what it was like before, when we were Cat High's M3. But deep down inside, i know that it's nothing more than a dream; an illusion. still, i'm eternally thankful that i had known such great friends during my course of life so far.
6. To YJ- i guess that when you read this post, you probably would have figured out that i'm enlisting this saturday and not next year. i'm really, really sorry for deceiving you and keeping you at a distance- the reason for all these deception sounds really childish, but i liked you. but i wasn't daring enuff to say that to you, face-to-face, and so, i pretended to be carefree, to project a playboy image. and then u got attached, so i tried to distance myself away from you, so that you could be happy, and i could, well, wallow in my self misery and not affect you in anyway, but just know that somewhere, you're enjoying every moment of your life with him. call me silly, call me immature, i don't care. knowing that you're happy makes me glad too. =)
7. To Ruth- once again, i'm leaving singapore, though for this time, it's not as an extended period as compared to the shanghai one. but somehow, national service seems to worry me more as compared to it, for whatever reason i cannot fathom. i haven't really got around to thanking you properly for all the letters you've sent me whilst i was in shanghai, so i sincerely thank you now. it brought warmth to me in the cold winters of shanghai, :p although u can't possibly send me letters to tekong, but still keep me in your prayers! jiayou for your studies in uni, and help me take care of TJ & jesse while i'm not around. =)
8. To Kimo- we were almost together once. i dunno wad will happen if at that time, i hadn't been so indecisive and accepted you- what would it be now? would we still be together now, and enjoying movies together? i guess that i played a major part in the failure of our relationship. i'm really sorry. i truly am. still, good luck for whatever you choose to do; i strongly believe that it's high time for us to move on, and you'll definitely find someone else better than me in your life.
9. To my other friends that i've failed to mention earlier- it doesn't mean that you guys are not special to me, or that i treat you guys as insignificant. it's just that the above inidividuals have touched me in my life in a special way, one way or another, good way or bad (though i'm pleased to say that most of which are good). i would like thank each and everyone of you guys, who have wished me good luck in one way or another for my upcoming enlistment. keep me in all of your prayers, alrights?
Well, i guess that's all the people i have to thank for now. =) somehow, the whole long post seems to be rather un-nicholas, for some reason. but hey, there's always a beginning for everything,no?
