mutterings of my life

2009-12-08T21:46:00.002+08:00

it seems that no matter how hard i try, no matter what i do, u don't seem to get it.
i've controlled myself with you for the last 21 years of my life already.
it may seem insignificant to u, but it seems alot to me.
if u're gonna be this way,
then i've got nothing to say to u anymore.
u'll just be another passer by in my life.
no more laughter, no more tears.
perhaps its beta for us both this way,
being indifferent to each other.

u won't get angry w me over the smallest of issues.
i wouldn't get pissed w u for controlling my life in every single aspect.
perhaps,
we weren't meant to be related to each other in the first place.
it was just a wierd, wierd, twist of fate.

Venus, You Can't resist

2009-11-06T17:47:00.001+08:00

繰り返す過ちにこの身を委ねたとしても
絶え間なく降り注いでいた涙の夜に迷ってる
二人がいた快楽へのPhase
満たされない反発のFace
吐息を押し殺した部屋
あなたを見失う

笑いたいほどに求め合えるなら
傷付け合ったとしても構わない
君と貴方の夢に行き続けてく
落ちて行く小さな写真の上

Again I make the error of entrusting you with myself
Though I survive the fall,
I cry thinking of the lost nights spent with you
Pleasurable phrases and your pure face
I sigh in this empty room
As you fade away

Let’s seek it out together
If we can put this pain behind
(with you)
The life you dreamed of
Captured in this small photograph

Venus
Just now you and me.
Just going night.
I’m tell you as.
Cause you are missing dear and die.
You kissing night.

Venus
Just now you and me.
Just going night.
I’m tell you as.

Venus
Just now you and me.

2009-10-27T21:26:00.000+08:00

A student at Eagle Rock Junior High won first prize at the Greater Idaho Falls Science Fair, April 26. He was attempting to show how conditioned we have become to alarmists practicing junk science and spreading fear of everything in our environment. In his project he urged people to sign a petition demanding strict control or total elimination of the chemical “dihydrogen monoxide.”

And for plenty of good reasons, since:

it can cause excessive sweating and vomiting
it is a major component in acid rain
it can cause severe burns in its gaseous state
accidental inhalation can kill you
it contributes to erosion
it decreases effectiveness of automobile brakes
it has been found in tumors of terminal cancer patients

He asked 50 people if they supported a ban of the chemical.

Forty-three (43) said yes,
six (6) were undecided,
and only one (1) knew that the chemical was water.

The title of his prize winning project was, “How Gullible Are We?”

He feels the conclusion is obvious.

2009-10-26T21:26:00.002+08:00

Dear Ryan,

I dunno who you are anymore. The old Ryan wouldn't dare to even think about such a thing, let alone do it. And now, last night, this morning, you actually went to do it. Do you have any idea what would happen if you got found out? If anything went wrong? There are so many if's and what if's in this plan, and you still went on for it, head first, just like you always do. Have you any idea what might happen if someone found out about it? There are so many loopholes, so many things that can happen, that can go wrong. And you still went for it.

Despite everything i said, what's done is done already. Now, all we can do is to wait and to hope, to pray, to believe that everything will work out the way you want it to be.

Because if it happens to turn out otherwise, then it'll be the end of the world.

Yours always,
Chase

2009-10-04T12:54:00.001+08:00

2009-09-06T20:25:00.001+08:00

- what i've been busy with for the past few days!

2009-08-22T21:43:00.003+08:00

i'm sorry.

i know that i've been acting like a jerk, always being sian whenever you bring me out to meet your friends, when we go out drinking/clubbing on friday or saturday nights, when you just wanna have fun and de-stress after a long work week and when i just want to hide under the comfort of my own balnket and sleep my worries, my stress away.

i try my best to accept your friends, be it that they are people whom i hate back in poly, i try to give them a second chance; be it that they do not respect us and our status, i try to ignore their snide and sarcarstic comments and leave it up to you to handle them; be it that they say bad things about my back, i keep quiet about it, and leave it to you to believe them or me.

but not to say that it's all bad; i did have my fun and laughter with some of your friends; the JB trip with K & J was one of the best overseas trips I had with my friends; common interests like cosplay have brought me and your friends closer too; and even going to zirca have not only opened my eyes to new clubbing venues in singapore, enlarged my social circle, facebook friends & msn lists, but opened me to all kinds of people and their diverse personalities.

it's been almost two months since u said 'yes' at the queensway macdonalds;and of course, there has been ups and downs in our time tgt- we've known our strengths and weaknesses; our flaws and our strengths; our idiosyncracies and our peeves; but through it all, we've managed to get through all of those with our perserverance and each other. You've lent me your shoulders to lean on when i was down and emo; i was there for you when you needed a shoulder to cry on.

so no matter what other people say, what other people do, deep down inside, i'll always be there for you.

2009-08-10T23:11:00.000+08:00

Tong: So, Mew, how have you been?

Mew: Fine. Playing my music is fun.

Tong: But you are alone. Aren't you lonely?

Mew: Frighteningly lonely.

Tong: What do you mean? "Frighteningly lonely"?

Mew: It's like when we were younger, we were so lonely because we didn't have alot of friends.
And now that we are grown up, loneliness seems, just so much worse.

Tong: Why is it so bad for you?

Mew: I don't know how to explain it. It started during the summer when I was in 8th Grade.
Papa took grandma somewhere for several days.
And the day when she came back...

It's not easy at all, because the longer my grandma is gone the more I miss her.

So I have one question:
If we can love someone so much, how will we be able to hand it the one day when we are separated?
And, if being separated is a part of life, and you know about separation well, is it possible Tong, that we can love someone and never be afraid of losing them?
At the same time, I was also wondering. Is it possible that, we can live our entire life without loving anyone at all?

That's my loneliness.
I have lived with it now for 5 years, I know just how bad loneliness feels.
I fear it will continue to get worse.

Tong: Mew... (reaches out arm towards Mew)

Mew: (leans towards Tong)

2009-07-26T18:06:00.000+08:00

nicky's gone shopping. =)

2009-07-25T21:43:00.001+08:00

the first month anniversary of ryan and chase!

2009-07-05T16:52:00.000+08:00

Live the Moment- Nicky's 21st!...

coming soon. =)

Recent Updates

2009-06-28T18:38:00.002+08:00

It's during a sorta sleepless night as i pen this coloumn- you know, the kind of nights whereby you just couldn't sleep, no mater how much you toss and turn on the bed, trying your darndest to sleep.

Maybe it was the late night dinner I had with J at Plaza Singapura. Between the two of us, we devoured a culet set meal (which comprised of a pork cutlet fillet, bowl of rice, miso soup and cold tofu in a sesame sauce), a set of gyozas fired to crispy golden brown perfection, his plate of curry baked rice, and a dessert of mixed fruits parfait. We did play a few games at the arcade before heading back home; but seriously, the food's barely digested in my sstomach before going to bed. And i always never do such a thing, ever since when i was in secondary school- i went to bed with a full stomach and couldn't sleep for the entire night. Imagine how bad was that.

The topic of studying overseas cropped u once again, in our dinner conversation and the subsequent exchnage of sms-es with another close friend from the polytechnic. The issue this ime was still the same as the one being disucssed before- it was a toss up between a 1.5 to 2 years long degree course in Commerce or Finance at the Australian National University, or a general degree in Arts and Social Sciences at our very own National University of Singapore.My folks at home, not to mention most of my friends, have all told me that NUS ould be abetter alternative as compared to ANU; I can empathize with them and I know that the main reason for saying so- besides the fact that NUS is not easy to get in- is the fac that my family isn't all that well-off to send me overseas to study. But i've already gotten over that fact a long time ago- ever since i saw that my aunt lived in a terrace house along Sixth Avenue whereas i'm a HDB-dweler at Queenstown. Hence, the financial constraints that are keeping me from venturing outside of Singapore to study is understandbale; it makes me really pissed off and such, considering that i wouldn't mind getting an overseas degree for the exposure that i'm gonna get from studying in a foreign country, just like my overseas attachment in Shanghai. True, it only lasted for half an year and i was back all-too-quickly, but still, i managed to have fun and learn some important life skills along the journey.

Suntan session today wasn't all that bad; there was a pretty good sun and i managed to knock out a 18 laps session today at the pool. Not very impressive and certainly not my prime, but somehow, it was either the pre-booking in blues, or the fact that it's a sunday, which made me procrastinate a little and gave myself a 10% discount on my oherwise normal routine of 20 laps in the pool. At least. And i've renewed my interest in getting that kayaking certificate, be it a 1-star or a 2-star one. Note to self: enough procrastinating, enough putting things off til the last minute, and enough laziness. It's high time you get a body that's so much better than what you're having now.

The NS issue has sort of reached a stalemate now: the psychiatrist appointment i had on thursday morning resulted in quite a disastrous manner; i didn't managed to get what i wanted to, which was quite a bummer, considering that the performance i had pulled off tha morning was, in my opinion, quite Oscar-worthy, so to speak. I even cried, for, erm, crying out loud. And don;t give me that crap about its all in my attitude towards NS; believe me, i'm already trying my best and controlling all my emotions for most of the time. If i didn't do so, i would have like really gone insane and get locked up in IMH. Or DB. Or both.

That stupid Dr Tan. and she still exchanged hp numbers with me and wanted me to join this stupid course that costs over $2k. Not unless you get me my items that i want first- then we can start talking about attending some feel-good seminar that costs over a few thousand dollars. Maybe at the end, the only ones that feel good are the organizers of that particular seminar.

Sidenote: Thank goodness for the auto save function. i was keying this blog entry on my bro's laptop when it suddenly died on me for no apparent reason.

But that being said, i'm gonna try another method. I don't believe that what I want, i cannot accomplish. To you, whom i said i'll treat a meal at Rochester Park- don't worry, I'm definitely gonna treat you that meal on my 21st birthday. How's that for a double celebration, hmm? =)

Stupid messenger is STILL not working at this point of time, gosh. :x seriously, like hello? Such a widely used program by almost everyone i know, and they're not doing anything? Ok, that was me ranting mindlessly. Don't mind me. =)

Quite a lengthy post; this should be enough to cover for my absence from the blog for like a few weeks or so. Til the next post then.

Nicky.

2009-06-03T20:54:00.002+08:00

thought might as well update on my blog since i've a night's out today, all thanks to some dumb exhibition that we were supposed to attend but ended uphaving breakfast at toa payoh hdb hub. =) the perks of being representatives.

*

the rehearsal was bad news for Ryan- the long hours meant that he would not be able to attend Chase's 21st birthday party, something that he had promised he wouldn't miss for the world. what's more, their current status meant that it wouldn't be nice, it wouldn't be apporpriate for him to miss the party. thankfully, the latest news is that Ryan would be able to make it to Chase's party, albeit at a later time.

"I'll pretend to be Romeo, and walk down the winding staircase of the mansion, ensuring that everyone will be looking at me as come down."

"Yeah, you do that, but make sure you don't trip over the stair and fall down the rest of the way."

"You evil meanie. Do you really want your partner to fall down the staircase and become paralysed for the rest of his life?"

Chase looked straight into his partner's eyes and spoke solemnly.

"I'll take care of you for the rest of your life, should you become bedridden, wheelchair-bound, or whatever-"

Ryan stopped him mid-sentence with a kiss on his lips.

"Enough."

The two lovebirds smiled at each other.

2009-05-31T11:39:00.002+08:00

just as the lights at the club comes on, it siginifies something. No matter how much fun we had, dancing away, rubbing against each other and grinding each other, getting wasted by the copoious amounts of alcohol drank, getting high and forgetting all the worries, all the troubles we had that we've left at the door- once the lights come on, it goes to show that despite everything, clubbing is just a temporary way to escape from all of the troubles that we have. When the lights come on, it goes to show that it's high time we do something about it.

- Mirrors, as mentioned by Chase

I'm being shameless by advertising for my story here, but too bad. There's always the 'x' button on the top right hand button on your screen. but i'm sure you won't do that, right?

the matter has been on my mind for past few weeks or so already- which explains why i've been sending wierd sms-es to ppl sometimes, and why i've been so emo and moody for the past weeks or so. i'm coming close to a decision already, but will i have the strength and courage to follow it through right to the end?

2009-05-24T22:16:00.002+08:00

I was planning to write about my graduation on friday- getting my 3rd sgt rank, all the pride, accomplishment, blah blah blah, when i thought, nah, it's not really interesting as a blog post. So i'm not gonna type abt it, but instead, another topic. =)

*

Ever since coming back from the shanghai attachment, and my enlistment into NS, i felt that i've drifted away from my family members, and my friends.Maybe it's the time that seperated me and them- the shanghai attachement was a full five months away in some country that's at least a good five hours from singapore, and my NS vocation unfortunately doesn't allow me to stay out every night. So when it comes to the weekends, you can imagine how precious they are to me. And it only consist of 48 bloody hours; in which i've to do all sorts of stuffs and really satisfy all of my cravings at the same time- going out with frens, catching up with old friends, while at the same time, fulfilling my duties as a good son and a good elder brother.

You could say that since i'm already almost 21 years old, i'm supposed to be able to arrange my schedule well, to plan out every single thing, right down to what i'm supposed to do every minute every day. But in my life, for the past 21 years or so, I find that I don't like to plan every single thing, contrary to what people know me as. My friends all often say that i'm very organized, very systematic, very cool and silent even, but somehow, it's just that facade that i put up in my everyday life. No, facade is a rather strong word to use, i would say 'appearance' is more appropriate.

NS, apart from robbing away two years of my life, has somehow changed me. I dunno if it's for the good or for the worse, but somehow, i feel that ever since i entered NS, i've learnt to not take things so naively. I've learnt that it's not good to always show your true feelings out, because you never know who is on your side, and who isn't. In camp, i always put up this fake front in the presence of all my camp mates, of all my colleagues. It's like i'm a different Nicholas in camp as compared to the Nicholas outside. And it really gets tiring sometimes. I sometimes really think, do I have the strength to overcome all of these 'acting' in the camp? But if i don't, then what? What would i do then?

I felt very lucky to have a group of close friends that never fails to cheer me up whenever i'm feeling down or depressed; or to be there to share my happiness with; to keep my company whnever i'm alone. I'm really grateful for them; without them, i don't know who can i turn to.

But it's not that i'm saying my family members aren't there for me. But sometimes, there are certain matters that somehow, i just can't bring myself to tell them about. And since this is a public blog, i sure as hell am not going to talk about those matters here. But i'm very sure those close friends of mine- they'll know what i'm referring to. And here comes another personal dilemma once again- if i stay true to myself, i'm sure that they'll be depressed and disappointed with me. But i'm sick and tired of pretending to be someone that i'm totally not. I'm really confused, really, really confused.

*

I'm tired. I'll continue this post another day. Til then.

2009-05-17T23:01:00.003+08:00

been some time i last blogged le. so it's like, i'm taking advantage of a monday morning book in to catch up with my long-lost sleep, meeting up with frens for shopping, and of cos, a short jb trip- so much so that it doesn't feel like goin overseas anymore- and watching my hk drama serial too. i'll be passing out as a 3SG this friday- everyone seems to be happy for me to have such an accomplishment, but deep down inside, or for those who really understands me, they would know that things are not what they seem. but for others, well, i guess they'll have to make do with this fake facade that i put up everyday.

rigght. pics of the grad parade will be up soon. =)

2009-05-03T12:58:00.002+08:00

i'm back! got lotsa pics to upload. so i'm gonna upload once and for all on FB. then can see from there. =)

I'm Flying off!!!!

2009-05-01T10:11:00.001+08:00

tooooooooo JB only lar, haaa. :P

a short weekend getaway to recharge my batteries for outfield on monday. i'll be back on saturday night!

2009-04-05T13:02:00.001+08:00

saw this on jake's blog... kinda curious so went to try it out. =)

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

well. how true issit?

2009-03-22T16:50:00.001+08:00

對不起我自私了
對不起我沒有安全感你也沒有給我安全感
對不起我吃醋了
對不起我不開心
對不起我那麼笨都不知道為你買的東西值不值得

愛情好盲目
愛情好複雜
這是愛情嗎
還是對你來說我只是一個好朋友

沒感情的話請結束
別浪費我的時間
我不想更喜歡你
到時要遺忘恐怕來不及了

2009-03-15T13:16:00.000+08:00

haha. nicky went clubbing for like, two weekends in a row. which explains his absence from MSN/ blogspot for the past few weeks. =D

2009-03-01T13:13:00.000+08:00

昨日はちょうど.....間違っていた、私仮定する。

は彼のブログに….書かれるように彼が持っていたこと私達二人が公式に…

まだ始まっていない既にガールフレンドの外側…

ことを私に告げ、それはである完全に私のためにかなり衝撃的… 多分…ちょうど多分…

it' s片思いのちょうど例….

" しかし私達二人は初めに一緒に公式にない! "

私は実際に彼を好んだ。私は実際に。それはなぜこれのようにならなければならなかったか。

2009-02-28T10:47:00.001+08:00

sometimes, i just like to be busy. hell-ass busy. so that my mind wouldn't have time to wander off and start thinking about nonsensical things. :p

untitled

2009-02-17T21:55:00.002+08:00

jus read kiki's blog.... found that her entries made lots of sense... its true that something's been missing in my life... but i.ve no idea what i'm missing... and army just made it worse... its like, i felt that i'm wasting/throwing away 2 yrs of my life like that... 2 yrs of my life- gone like that! *woosh

some ppl would say that it's a duty and honour for me to defend my country, but u noe wad, its all completely bull***t. seriously. the things that we learnt inside, all the things that we do inside, all of them just make me feel like emigrating and leaving this country forever. and not come back. oh, mebbe for chinese new year and xmas, and on my bro's wedding. :D

but on the other hand, there r just too many things left here. my mum, for one. altho she says that she wouldnt mind me working overseas, it's v obvious that she would be v yi yi bu she if i really went overseas to work. and all my other family members- my dad, my bro, my cousins, and my group of frens, people like tj, jesse, ruth, my BFF!, FOS, just to name a few..

i alwaes see my platoon mates all having fun in NS, in whatever they are doing... and the problem is that i alwaes try to click with them, to talk to them, to participate in whatever they're doing; i alwaes try to not think so much whenever the trg starts, so that i can somehow try to enjoy myself in NS as much as i can without feeling as miserable as i am alr. but it alwaes fails. it alwaes fucking fails.

issit becos i'm growing older and older? i wasnt like this in the past... u can take a look at my past entries... they're all filled with so much laughter, so much fun, so much 'HAHAs' and stuff like that... my recent entries are all, on the contray, moody, emo, and full of 'SIGHs' and stuff like that. why?! why?! why?! i.ve lost interest in writing- i wanted to continue Mirrors 2, but somehow, after i planned out the brief story line and all the characters, my mind would become totally blank and i wouldnt be able to write anything nice out. mebbe it's due to the perfectionist streak in me when it comes to writing, i alwaes wanted to write very nice stories that ppl would read and enjoy. but nowadays, when i try to write, nothing substantial comes out. and it's scaring me. it's scaring me alot. has army done all of these to me?

thank goodness BFF re-introduced me to the world of cosplay again.. it's like an avenue for me to express my identity and explore my freedom again, away from all the restrictions that army is imposing on me... BFF, if u're reading this, kanpatei~ don't overwork yrself, and i noe that joo can succeed both in yr work and in yr studies!!! and to quote from yr entry, let's both find that spark in our lives once again to get everything going!

everytime sunday evening comes, my mood would totally drop down. once it's almost time for me to book in, i alwaes become emo-momo again. i dunno if my frens realized it anot.. everytime i go out on saturdaysor friday nights, i would be super high and be the high point in the outing and crack jokes and stuff; when i go out on sundays, i would be like, sian sian like that, and become v quiet, only talking when it's absoultely necessary.

nozomanakereba nani mo, okoranai.

- but the problem is, i.ve been wishing for alot of things already. and yet, nothing, absolutely nothing, has happened as of now.

well, i suppose that's the end of all the ranting that i wanna say for now. til the next post!

2009-01-25T13:44:00.002+08:00

yesssss. CNY celebrations is around the corner again.. ok, to be more precise, it's like, eve of CNY today. strange how fast time flies; just the year before during this period, i was still involved in my attachment at shangri-la, eating their lo hei that the manager treated me too. =) one year jus passed like that. :p

PS. I'm being totally random in this post. pardon me.

2009-01-23T23:16:00.000+08:00

2009年
我想做我喜欢的事
我想见我想见的人
我想爱我想爱得人

我想我爱的人爱我

2009-01-11T19:47:00.004+08:00

it's not easy maintaining 2 blogs. :p thankfully, i haf this to remind me of stuffs that i can forget sometimes. =)

went camwhoring with tricia last night.

2008...

2009-01-03T22:58:00.004+08:00

It's the new year!
Before i embark on 2009, here's a recap of the more memorable events in 2008...

1. Graduation
after 3 years.... finally it's time to graduate!
will miss all the times chong-ing for projects with FOS; koping empty library discussion rooms... booking jupiter room to watch Final Destination movies...and da-baoing food into LTs...

2. KL Trip
went on road trip up to KL with family members... been superrrrr long since i went on a holiday with parents and cousins le... =)

3. Taipei Trip!
yessssss! finally managed to go to taipei before enlistment. =) haf alwaes wanted to go there after watching all those taiwanese variety shows; v v v v happy to finally go there once.

4. BKK Trip
think it's somewhat cursed trip... fell apart with H after the trip. sigh.

5. EOY 2008
eoy!!! been looking foward to it ever since enlisting into NS; caught up with kisaki, and made new frens along the way too. =) much more fun during tis eoy as compared to the previous years'.

6. Xmas dinner + FOS gatherings
hahah. after an overseas dinner last year, this year, it's back to singapore again! celebration with FOS at timbre and marina bay area. :p and of cos, all the FOS gatherings that made my 2008 a more enjoyable one!

7. BMTC Graduation parade
of cos, the most important one of all, my BMTC graduation parade!

v long post from me... shall state out my new year's resolutions in another post, til then!

=)

2009-01-01T01:11:00.001+08:00

you'll be the prince, and i'll be the princess
it's a love story,
and i'll say yes.
- Taylor Swift, Love Story

And i suppose that's what sums up 2008.

Happy New Year, everyone!

2008-12-25T15:18:00.000+08:00

will upload pics from the midnight mass
+
christmas party at my place soon!

2008-12-13T22:30:00.002+08:00

lol.

eoy was FUUUUUN!

took a few pics only.

more to come from kisaki!

2008-12-11T11:44:00.002+08:00

I saw this on Diane's blog and I was laughing at hers.

Template:
Dear (the last person who text messaged you),
I don't really know how to tell you this, but (1). I think I realized it (2) (3) and I saw you (4) (5). I'm sure you're (6) enough to understand (7). I'm returning (8) to you, but I'll keep (9) as a memory. You should also know that I (10) (11).
(12), Your name.

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Brown - The mafia wants you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Chicken - In your closet
Kabob - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife.

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Barefoot - Sit on
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My pet cactus
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Purple - My mustard souffle
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
House - Scarred
Lost - High
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Sad - How boring you are
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks
None of the above - Ashamed

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Green - The pictures from LA
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain

So, if i put everything together, it'll look something like this...

Dear Melv,
I don't really know how to tell you this, but the mafia wants you. I think I realized it when your dog ran amok in your apartment and I saw you carve your initials into my pet cactus. I'm sure you're emotional enough to understand that there is no solution to this. I'm returning the couch cushions to you, but I'll keep your suicide note as a memory. You should also know that I was interviewed by The Times about eggplant-fetishism.

Go burn,

Nicky .

2008-12-10T23:16:00.000+08:00

POP!!!!!

2008-12-08T13:36:00.002+08:00

its that time of the year again. when big, massive, huge, over-the-top countdown parties are being held. when people get crushed upon/smashed/jostled upon/whatever u can think of, and complain to the newspapers the day after that they have been molested, that they have been pickpocketed, what not. :p

don't call me a wet blanket. sure, i enjoy countdown parties. but somehow, i don't like countdowns. it makes me feel as though there's not much time left. not much time left to finish whatever i want to do. to finish whatever goals i have not accomplished yet.

and as i countdown to the new year, i suddenly think, what have i done in the past 12 months that made me feel accomplished? have i wasted it all? have i been able to spend the past year fruitfully?

2008-12-06T23:28:00.001+08:00

2008-11-23T13:03:00.002+08:00

gosh.

have been looking thru my old photos on my laptop and came across my taipei pictures. that was me, taken in september this year. and i looked at myself in the mirror. *shakes head scary how NS can change someone so much.

13 more working days before i POP and get as far away from that island as possible. and hopefully, by that time, i'll get the blogging bug back again and churn out lengthy posts that i used to do so before enlisting. it's like, after enlisting, i've lost the mood to blog as long as i did before. for whatever reason, i dunno too. :x

*randomly ends the blog post

J'ai ai toujours voulu dire ceci à toi, mais de façon ou d'autre, j'avais toujours manqué du courage de faire ainsi. J'ai déjà maintenu ceci dans mon coeur pour très un à long terme, attendant cette occasion spéciale, pour que ce moment dise ces mots à toi…

20th birthday!

2008-11-16T16:55:00.002+08:00

well, that's it. my 20th birthday. 20 years of my life spent here, on earth, on this tiny little island called singapore. i've had my share of joy, of fun, of sadness, of depression, of tension, of worry, of angst, of emo, of excitement, of worry, of anxiety. special thanks to all of whom had helped me celebrate my birthday- my parents, family, tricia, yujie, kisaki, kevin, melvin, and all those who wished me on the phone/sms/facebook.

*i'm not typing a long entry cos i've lost the blogging bug! and it sucks when u haf to book in at 7pm during yr birthday.

2008-11-16T00:10:00.000+08:00

my first birthday prezzie!

2008-11-01T11:47:00.002+08:00

i feel blessed. to have this group of frens that are always around me, that are always dere for me, to pick me up when i'm feeling down, to share my happiness and joy when i'm happy, to comfort me when i'm feeling down and depressed, to lift me out of my emo-momo ness. =)

i'm being ranpical now- a quiz that i've seen on some blogs. :p

1. What people done that will make you hate him/her most?
Being fake and not meaning what they say.

2. What is your most favorite thing to do?
Lazing on my sofa, with the TV on MTV, and reading my shoxx magazine.

3. What kind of news do you read?
Entertainment, local.

4. What is your ultimate wish?
To do whatever i want, whenever i want.

5. Is there someone in your heart right now?
Hmmmmmm. ;)

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
Hell NO.

7. Are you afraid of pain?
To a certain extent, yes. BFF, i noe u're cringing right now. :p

8. What do you feel like doing right now?
Go to Tokyo&Osaka for a hot springs tour.

9. If theres someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
I dunno; i would have to see whether my feelings for him/her are going to be reciprocrated or not. i dun believe in a one-sided, or worse, un-requited love.

10. What you can live without at the moment?
My iPod!

11. What is your 5 most passionate things at this moment?
- Complete NS as fast as possible

- Get my highly-delayed driving license

- Save enuff money for that Tokyo/Osaka trip

- Cosplay-ing

- Starbucks/ tcc coffee

12. If you have to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what will it be?
Potatoes. In all sorts of COOKED forms. :D

13. If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one will you pick?
Happy, most definitely.

14. If you have a chance , which part of your character you would like to change?
My impetousness.

15. How do you see yourself in 10years time?
A young, fit and happy young man running a chain of hugely successful visual-kei themed cafes.

16. What is the one thing that you love about yourself?
My love for studying and books. :p

17. If you can bring only one thing along with you to the another world, what will it be?
LOL. my laptop with all the photos inside.

18. Why am I in love w/ the person i'm loving so much?
Becos of his/her character.

19. What am i planning to do from now on ?
Slack as much as i can in Ns, get the hell outta there, and into a university of my choice.

2008-10-18T23:09:00.002+08:00

no, that's not me lounging in a recital studio, acting the part of an emo- jrock singer holding a mike and emo-ing. =) [although i realli wanna be one. but i prefer being the drummer. it's more appealing for me. ]

another short blog entry from me today. i promise tmr will be a longer blog entry, okies?? :P

1 (or 2) picture post!

2008-10-12T16:12:00.001+08:00

taipei trip- September 08

sushi tei@ vivo, october 08

BFF said i looked tanned. my mum said i looked slimmer. do i?

2008-10-05T16:51:00.002+08:00

National service has been somewhat.... tiring for me, i guess. waking up at 520 am each day can be quite hard to get used to, especially when i haven been waking up that early ever since secondary school.

speaking of which, i suppose to sum up NS- it's like an extended version of the BURST camp that i had attended before in sec 2. all the physical trg, all the drill commands, etc. makes me treasure my weekends all the more.

jus a short update from me. =)

chappie 1!

2008-09-27T17:49:00.000+08:00

Something that i've written over the past few days. Enjoy!

He looked around the room for one last time- the room in which he had called his own for the past nineteen years of his life. A private sanctuary for him in times of depression and sorrow; a calm oasis for him whenever he felt that the hustle and bustle of the world were getting too unbearable for him; a little piece of Eden for him whenever he wrote his stories in, surrounded by his favourite pieces of literature and the sounds of Mozart’s concert pieces.

His eyes glanced over his messy desk, stacked with folders of magazines, notebooks, and many different paraphernalia gathered from everywhere- there was an invitation form from a prestigious overseas university lying in the leftmost folder; there was no reason for him to reply to it now. Wires of all kinds lay in a basket in the middle of the table, sharing space with a digital camera.

He took a deep breath, and exhaled sharply. Faint scents of sandalwood and rosemary could be felt in the air, remnants of the aromatherapy set which he had burnt the night before, a futile attempt to go to sleep. The laundry basket, beside his bed, was by now empty- a sight that was never seen before.

A strange sense of emotion washed passed him- he had known that this day was coming ever since he was born and he knew how to count time, but still, it had seemed to be so, so far away. Till it finally came. The preparations for the day had numbed his anxiousness and his worry somewhat, but now, in the morning, just before leaving his home, it had all came back.

There was a dry taste in his mouth now; it had gone dry after heading back into his room to pick up his bags. He had tried swallowing saliva, but still, there was that dry feeling in his mouth. Deep down, he knew that it had nothing to do with thirstiness or not drinking enough water. It simply boiled down to a single factor.

He switched off the hi-fi system; the screaming sounds of Gazette were cut rather abruptly. Picking up his bags, he switched off all the plugs in his room, wiped away a solitary tear that had been running down his cheek, gave his room one last glance, and went out of the room. The room in which he had spent the last nineteen years of his life in.

He locked the door behind him. And never looked back.

An ode to everyone throughout all these years

2008-09-11T12:00:00.003+08:00

I keep thinking times will never change

Keep on thinking things will always be the same

But when we leave this year we won't be coming back

No more hanging out cause we're on a different track

And if you got something that you need to say

You better say it right now cause you don't have another day

Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down

Not in my usual blogging style to start off with song lyrics, but thought that it might be quite apt to do so- to pave the way for what I'm gonna post ahead.

people have been wishing me good luck for national service, telling me that it'll be just fine, that it'll be a breeze, that it'll pass by in a blink of an eye (alright, 2 blinks of an eye, since it's 2 years). I'm gonna miss lots of people in sg though- it's like, it's different from the time i went to shanghai for my six months attachment period. yes, i can book out on the weekends if i don't get guard duty, but seriously, after all these years, i've learnt that what happens in theory may never happen in real life. =) and also, not to hope for too much or invest too much feelings into something- the feeling of failure somehow always gets multiplied if that something never comes through. i suppose all those years of playing final fantasy have made me model my character into something like squall leonhart. for good or for bad, you decide.

herewith, all the thanks i want to extend to:-

1. To kisaki- my dear BFF! Thanks for being so open-minded and liberal! and for letting me suan u all the time and still not get angry after all of it unlike some of my friends, who would do so at the slightest provocation! thanks for not being homophobic and everything when i shared with u my 'polaroid moments', and all the online manga that you've recommended me to, especially JJR and ST, though sad to say, when i read them again, there's no kick le. u have to find some more hard-core ones by the time i book out 2 weeks from this saturday! =) and of cos, for introducing me to the world of cosplay & visual kei, where i got to know my shou-hubby and reita-bf! :p and as always, for being there when i needed someone to sms/talk with!

2. To alvin- my dear EEEEEEEE friend! haha, although we only got to know each other recently, i ca safely say that our friendship is definitely deifnitely much stronger than the time spent getting to noe each other. =) it's been a very enjoyable time going out with u, despite u calling me a qian jing & spoilt brat in yr blog. :p i wanted to say this yesterday night, but forgot to say it, so I'll say it now- my nickname back in secondary school was daomingsi. :p so now u know why. =) although i was slightly puzzled as to why u wanted to know me at first (through phoebe), I'm very glad that it wasn't the wrong decision in the end (to know you). remember to keep in contact always, and jiayou for your engineering course! i know u can do it- becos i would have failed in the first semester in your course. kanpatei!

3. To the FOS gang: kevin, tricia, johnsten, junan- thanks for lightening up my poly days (and not to mention, my post-poly lives) with so much joy, fun and laughter, even during our marketing days. to let u guys noe, i was actually very unwilling to be in the Business Studies diploma at first- that explains all the LT door slamming & being emo-momo all throughout my days at ngee ann. but knowing u guys certainly made the BS diploma a more bearable one. thanks alot!

3a. To kevin- my fellow partner in crime! we haven't catched up for gossip sessions and bitching sessions for ages! think the last time was at the tcc@ps? find some time and do some serious catching up! i've LOADS to tell u, some of which subject matter can be HIGHLY controversial. :P

3b. To tricia- my good friend and bitching partner! life's definitely goinna be more boring and dull without all the guys in FOS around rite?? :p wait for us! and in the meantime, enjoy shan's company! jiayou for your studies in SIM!

3c. To johnsten- yum cha on our first book out!

4. To phoebe- my camwhoring buddy! definitely i'm going to miss our camwhoring sessions all over singapore- raffles place, the cathay, just to name a few. we shld like, make a xie zhen ji one of these days, when i have HAIR! :p thanks for being there on super long msn conversations when i'm feeling down and emo-momo. mus help me take care of XX when i'm inside tekong, ok? =)

Gosh. this post is getting longer and longer. and i'm barely halfway through. bear with me. more people coming up. :)

5. To TJ & Jesse- i've kept these words in my heart til now. i guess that there's no other more apporpirate time to say it to u guys other than now- though i'm not too sure whther you guys will be able to read it or not. i would be lying if i said that the 2 of you all were probably the best friends i had (and most porbably will have)- Cat High would not have been the same without you guys. but somehow, there's this rift that started to form between me and the 2 of u- i dunno if it was the Os, the JC/Poly route, you guys' earlier enlistement, the ruth saga, my overseas attachment, or somehow, all of those coupled together. i definitely, DEFINITELY treasured the times we had, and i hope, more than anything, that we could return to what it was like before, when we were Cat High's M3. But deep down inside, i know that it's nothing more than a dream; an illusion. still, i'm eternally thankful that i had known such great friends during my course of life so far.

6. To YJ- i guess that when you read this post, you probably would have figured out that i'm enlisting this saturday and not next year. i'm really, really sorry for deceiving you and keeping you at a distance- the reason for all these deception sounds really childish, but i liked you. but i wasn't daring enuff to say that to you, face-to-face, and so, i pretended to be carefree, to project a playboy image. and then u got attached, so i tried to distance myself away from you, so that you could be happy, and i could, well, wallow in my self misery and not affect you in anyway, but just know that somewhere, you're enjoying every moment of your life with him. call me silly, call me immature, i don't care. knowing that you're happy makes me glad too. =)

7. To Ruth- once again, i'm leaving singapore, though for this time, it's not as an extended period as compared to the shanghai one. but somehow, national service seems to worry me more as compared to it, for whatever reason i cannot fathom. i haven't really got around to thanking you properly for all the letters you've sent me whilst i was in shanghai, so i sincerely thank you now. it brought warmth to me in the cold winters of shanghai, :p although u can't possibly send me letters to tekong, but still keep me in your prayers! jiayou for your studies in uni, and help me take care of TJ & jesse while i'm not around. =)

8. To Kimo- we were almost together once. i dunno wad will happen if at that time, i hadn't been so indecisive and accepted you- what would it be now? would we still be together now, and enjoying movies together? i guess that i played a major part in the failure of our relationship. i'm really sorry. i truly am. still, good luck for whatever you choose to do; i strongly believe that it's high time for us to move on, and you'll definitely find someone else better than me in your life.

9. To my other friends that i've failed to mention earlier- it doesn't mean that you guys are not special to me, or that i treat you guys as insignificant. it's just that the above inidividuals have touched me in my life in a special way, one way or another, good way or bad (though i'm pleased to say that most of which are good). i would like thank each and everyone of you guys, who have wished me good luck in one way or another for my upcoming enlistment. keep me in all of your prayers, alrights?

Well, i guess that's all the people i have to thank for now. =) somehow, the whole long post seems to be rather un-nicholas, for some reason. but hey, there's always a beginning for everything,no?

2008-09-08T12:31:00.002+08:00

thanks to everyone who called/smsed/msned me over ystd and today morning... i'm ok to let u guys noe.. i'm not jumping off a building/gonna drink dishwashing liquid/rat poison/insert name of fatal liquid here.. i jus heard the song again.. yes... THAT song... then it reminded me of XXX... so yea.... but i'm ok, :)

2008-09-07T22:56:00.000+08:00

I loved you a lot, but it's time to part.

Everyday was full of quarrelling.

I have to live alone from now on.

I won't cry anymore.

Truthfully, it's harsh, it's painful and lonely.

But that's because you're pretending to be strong

I'm sorry. I was stupid to think we could smile till the end

Even though I just want to cry.

I quickly understood, because I've seen many expressions up till now.

It's not that we've lost interest, but rather than losing sight of each other

It's better to say "Do your best" and walk our own separate roads

Farewell, see you again, be well.

I'll never never forget

Farewell, we'll definitely meet again, right?

It's a promise, we'll link our little fingers as a sign

8th of July, our third month anniversary. I wonder if you remember

The time we first met?

You, looking down in shame, were crying...

Those were enjoyable, inevitable days.

It was short, but we were happy.

Even though we were happy...

I quickly understood, because I've seen many expressions up till now.

It's not that we've lost interest, but rather than losing sight of each other

It's better to say "Do your best" and walk our own separate roads

Farewell, see you again, be well.

I'll never never forget

Farewell, we'll definitely meet again, right?

It's a promise, we'll link our little fingers as a sign

Hooking little fingers in a promise, you said 'Just a little while more, don't take yours away'.

One day, when we can laugh again, as two people who won't miss each other...

One day, when we can laugh again...

(If I turn around you'll see my tears, so waved with my back facing you.

I'll never forget. Don't change, and stay as the you whom I love.)

Farewell, see you again, be well.

(I'll never never forget)

Farewell, we'll definitely meet again, right?

(It's a promise, we'll link our little fingers as a sign)

You, whom I love, became a precious memory.

It's lonely to the point of death, your voice won't leave my mind

2008-09-06T15:01:00.004+08:00

taipei pics are on the way!
here's a few to start off first!

I'm leaving on a jet plane!

2008-09-01T12:19:00.003+08:00

yay!! i'm blogging now from the departure lounge of changi airport! wheets!
the flight's departing only at 1pm, and we arrived kinda early (much too early to be exact- we're like nua-iing at airport now. :) so i spotted the free computer terminal and i'm blogging now! haha. will take lotsa photos and upload it to my blog so keep checking my blog for updates!

okok i can't blog much now. the computer terminal only got 15minutes of limited usage! see you guys!

:)

2008-08-22T22:54:00.002+08:00

weeet. am back to blogging again. some pics to explain my absence...

few pics... went to raffles place to camwhore with keyin a few weeks ago...

photoshoot with himura!

recce at changi for taipei trip!

2008-08-14T10:16:00.000+08:00

nabei.
i forgot to bring my jacket today.
and i'm freezing my ass off.
even though i'm wearing long sleeved and everything.
:x

2008-08-09T12:12:00.001+08:00

fuck the world.

updates!

2008-08-05T10:48:00.002+08:00

righhhhht.
my laptop died on me on sunday, and refused to start up no matter how much i threatened it, whacked it, beat it or showed my care and concern for it. will be reformatting it soon, haf to back up all my stuff in the lappy first with the the external hard disk i'm gonna get next couple of days.
jase came over last night to try and repair my lappy til 1am or so. thanks yea!
:)
projs haf been completing alr, so much more relaxed nowadays.
am looking forward to overseas trip next month!!!!!!

2008-07-29T21:52:00.001+08:00

new blog skin!

comments!!!

2008-07-22T09:30:00.000+08:00

much apologies for not blogging often for the last 2 wks or so.. haf been busy with projs... :) met out with kc, audrey and sf last saturday.. took some pics and will post it up once i get the photogs from kc.. :) til then.

yx: "I dun dare drink the water from the water cooler outside le."

ferrari:"but i've been drinking it, and its ok wad!"

FOS(minus tang,johnsten,junan) outing!

2008-07-13T21:00:00.007+08:00

Right. before i start on this blog entry, i wann tell everyone i'm moving house end of this month!! yupp, the pic below shows my new house. hindbede mansions, blk 21, unit number- #02-24. its at bukit timah, jus opposite the KAP macdonalds. will update u peeps on the exact date of moving and the housewarming party!! so exciting; the last time i moved was back in kindgarden lar. :x

right. onto the proper entry. met up with tricia ystd, to climb this!!

yupp!! the-one-who-hardly-exercises and the one-who-occasionally-does is meeting to go climb the highest point in sgp!! of cos, there's a reward after all the exercise. u'll see later. :)

this is only the beginning. and the road is superrrrrr steep. i was like, panting slightly while climbing it. and dun even ask abt tricia. :P

this is only the beginning.....

can see how shagged i was, even though it's only the beginning.

so after some climbing....

and some more climbing....

we haf reached the top!!!!!!! *heaves a huge sigh of relief. only to realize that we haf to walk all the way down again.

Me:"eh, bukit timah shld build those trams like hongkong's The Peak hor"

Tricia:"yea lor, thats why."

being the camwhores, we couldnt resist camwhoring there. and i took some pics of the monkeys. using my cam's super zoom function. :p

we made it back down after 1.5 hrs of climbing. not too bad. :) lunch-ed at boon tong kee chicken rice along bukit timah road. so cute lar, the rice. its served in the form of a pyramid! cuteeeeeeeeee!

the pyramid rice!

showered, then headed down to city hall for a spot of shopping. sth funny happened.

while we were at suntec, we walked over to marina square.

Me:" eh, what u wann to look at here (marina square)?"

Tricia:" dunno leh."

Me"Then why we come here for wad."

silence ensued.

went to the arcade in the end to play the thailand game. wanted to play outrun, but they didnt haf. so went back to suntec's arcade to play the outrun. super nice lar, the outrun game! the seats vibrate too! (ok, that sounded wrong).

dinner-ed at raffles city's cafe cartel; wanted to try shokudo, but the queue was 多到~ ended up sharing the food at cafe cartel; refer to tricia's blog to see the pics.

slacked ard before goin to PS and introducing her to the cooking game and photo hunt. oh, and some more b-ball!!

headed home, totally shagged to the core, at 10.

PS. i was just kidding abt the new home at bukit timah part. :) it was a condo pic that i snapped while at the foot of bukit timah hill. but the condo was super chio lar! imagine living there. woah, shiok sia! can go jogging/mountain biking there every day!

it's over...

2008-07-08T22:39:00.000+08:00

你說我們分開吧　

這樣對你我都好

我知道　　

今夜睡不著　

走在無人街道　

想妳到無可救藥

我知道　　

我忘你不了

這樣就好　

我知道都是我的不好

不明白為何你轉身走掉

不想明瞭　

不想知道

那一句你我都好

這樣就好　

沒有你一樣過的很好

不需要再為妳擔心煩惱

雖然很痛　

雖然很糟

但習慣就好

2008-07-04T17:12:00.000+08:00

Name 21 people you can think of right off the top of your head. Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 21 people.Ready, Start!

1.TJ 2.Jesse, 3.Ruth, 4.KEvin, 5.Tricia 6.Johnsten 7.Munying 8.Glenn 9.YuJie 10.Alex 11.Phoebe 12.Soohui 13.Thomas 14.Kaz 15.Ronald 16.Kisaki 17.ChengYeow 18.Jake 19.Germaine 20.JunAn 21.Kimo

THE QUESTIONS:
1. How did you meet 14?` online met de. :)
2. What would you do if you never met 6?` no FOS!!
3. What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?` LOL! hahaha. as far as i noe, junan not aj lehh. too bad for yujie lorr. but he's v shuai!
4. Did you ever like 5?` haaa. cannot say, she will read my blog de. :P
5. Would 4 and 10 make a good couple? lol! hell no!
6.Describe 8:` hmmm. gd fren, stays near me?
7. Do you think 13 is attractive?` ohhhhhh. YES! ;)
8. Tell me something about 7:` she's my lunch-mate! and my gossiping partner!
9. Do you know any of 4's family?` hmmm. i only noe he got one elder bro. and 1 elder sis who says i'm siao.
10. What's 21's favorite idol?`hmm. he got alot leh. mebbe more mando-pop artists ba.
11. What would you do if 18 just confessed he/she liked you?` awww. can i accept? :)
12. what language does 20 speak?` lol. eng, mandarin, hokkien, and vulgarities!! ;p
13. Who is 9 going out with?` hmm, so far no one, if i didnt rmbr wrongly.
14. How old is 16 now?` same age as me!
15.When's the last time you talked to 12?` a week ago; we went PS shopping.
16. What is 2's favorite band?` woahh. not too sure lehh.
17. Would you ever date 10?`lol! of cos not! :)
18. Would you ever date 12?` :)
19. Is 15 single?` yep!
20. What is 19's last name?` Teo, i think...
21. Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 11?` ohhhhhh. hahaa. she will read my blog also de. so cannot say. :)
22. What school does 3 go to?` hwa chong instituition.
23. Where does 17 live?` ehhhh. bukit batok?
24. What's your favorite thing about 16?` j-pop! GLP!
25. Have you seen number 1 naked?`topless, yes. :) but full body, no.

Get to Know me All over Again!

2008-07-02T11:38:00.001+08:00

Get to know me all over again!

1)Who did you last go out with?
Yeehui. And ke-yin.

2) What do you want to receive on your
birthday?
Hmm. Calvin klein cologne.

3) Reach your hand out to the right.
What do you touch?
Paper.

4) What time did you sleep last
night?
11plus.. tired last night.. dunno why

5) What's the wallpaper on your
computer?
SuperBand logo + drums set

6)What can you hear besides the
computer?
Yuxing. “I’m scared of drinking the water outside now.”

7) Do you agree to the saying "to
Forgive is to forget"?
No. hell no.

8) When was the last time tears
started to roll down your cheek?
Lol. They stream down quite oftenly.

9) What/who makes you happy?
Find out for yourself..

10) What makes you sad?
..

11 ) What are your favorite books?
Dan Brown's.. and Harry Potter Series too.

12) What would you like to have right
at this moment which seems totally
impossible?
*sighs at survey

13) Who will you turn to if you have a
huge problem?
A wall.

14)What's your favorite song at the
moment?
What About Now. Qing Ai de nab u shi ai qing.

15) What was the last song that keeps
ringing on?
I can't remember..

16) What was the best event that
happened last year?
Hmmmmm. My birthday.

17) What colour(s) are you wearing today?
Emo black.

18) Last thing you ate?
Walnut cake.

19) Who were you with?
Alone.

20) Have you gone to the beach just w/
your buddies? ?
yup. FOS outing on last Saturday!

21) Do you love sunsets?
No. I like blue skies with white clouds.

22)When is your b-day?
16th november. Presents plx.

23) What are your wishes for your
birthday?
i. -first wish cannot reveal-

ii. money

iii. any wishlist item..

24) Who do you wanna be w/ on the day
of your birthday?
(:

25)Have you ever felt that you've been
taken for granted?
Mm..well. . .. .

26)thing/s you regret??
Woahhh. A lot of things wor, this one.

27)Things you want to do besides answering
this survey?
I wanna sleep...

28) What's the most important sentence/s that lingers in your mind now?
悲傷不是用字就可以形容的

29)COOKIES n' cream or double dutch? ?
sticky chewy chocolate!

30) Chocolate cake or brazo de
mercedez? ?
choc cake.

31) Do you like spongebob?
Eeeee.

32) Do you know how to play the
guitar?
I wanna pick up bass someday.

33 ) Who's the last person you
texted?
Ke-yin.

34 )KFC or Kenny Rogers?
Kenny rogers

35) Beach or CAMPING?
beach definitely. But when got high tide.

36 ) Do you find yourself sexy?
No.

37) Hotdogs or cheesedogs? ?
haha. Hmm. niether.

40 Do you like Shawarma?
Har? Wads dat?

41)is there someone you're missing
right now?
:D

42) Do you love someone right now?
I LURV U!!

Makes Me Wonder

2008-06-29T22:26:00.003+08:00

RULES:

1. Put Your iTunes/Windows Media Player/ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5. Put this on your journal.
PS: Choose 4 frens to do it too!! [phoebe, yujie, munying, tricia]

1. If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say?
走火入魔(丁当&阿信).[ahaha!!! what on earth that someone trying to do wor. ;)]

2.How would you describe yourself?
我 live(五月天).[hmmm.]

3.What do you like in a girl/guy?
Inconsoleable (Backstreet Boys).[jialat lar, liddat. my stead inconsoleable i not cham liao. :x]

4.How do you feel today?
Touch My Body(Mariah Carey).[touch my body, throw me onto yr bed....]

5.What is your life's purpose?
Don't Let Me Go (Zion demo).[hmm, dun let who go?]

6.What is your motto?
知足 '07最知足版 (五月天).[Right..]

7. What do your friends think of you?
Chi Niao(F.I.R.).[i dunno wad is chi niao leh. humming bird ah?]

8. What do you think of your parents?
爱的王道(Farenheit).[Lol. narnia ah, 王道 somemore]

9.What do you think about very often?
L-O-V-E(JJ Lin Jun Jie).[:)]

10.What is 2 + 2?
挣扎(Nicholas Teo).[TWO PLUS TWO still mus 挣扎 meh.]

11.What do you think of your best friend?
Nine in the Afternoon (Panic! In the disco).[Har?! LOL.]

12.What do you think of the person you like?
发现爱 (林俊杰/金莎.)[HMMM.]

13.What is your life story?
The Luckiest (Ben Folds)[woahhhh. 4D also nvr lemme strike.]

14.What do you want to be when you grow up?
Anywhere(Evanescence)[how vague..]

15.What do you think of when you see the person you like?
I Can Feel(Hyde).[first touch my body, now i can feel. LOL.]

16.What will you dance to at your wedding?
The Greatest (S Club).[The song so calm how to dance to..]

17.What will they play at your funeral?
Have You Ever (S Club).[ok lar, the song quite nice and soothing.]

18.What is your hobby/interest?
摩托車日記 live (五月天).[haha. not really. although my laptop wallpaper is Ducati motorbike.]

19.What is your biggest fear?
Intro (FIR).[haha. quite true. me quite afraid of presentations de. but bo bian poly mus do lotsa presentations. :x]

20.What is your biggest secret?
好朋友(Show Luo zhi Xiang).[hmmmm. i haf a mass murderer as my gd fren. SHH.]

21.What do you think of your friends?
我的骄傲(Joey Yung).[awwwwwww.]

22.What will you post this as?
Makes me Wonder (Maroon 5)[ee so boring song].

23.What song would you play while having sex?
超喜欢你 (Farenheit).[Wth the song so cheerful how to sex. LOL. its a nice song tho..]

Why I Haven't Been Blogging....

2008-06-26T22:53:00.001+08:00

2008-06-20T22:31:00.002+08:00

Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1) Have you given your first kiss away? Yup.

2) Where is the place that you want to go the most? anywhere and everywhere.

4) If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?........ that dream :)..

5) Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain? Yupp, got see some before.

6) Who/What are you afraid to lose the most now?..

7) Where has question 3 gone to? Ehhhh. where ah? *innocent smile

8) If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her? lol. this survey v qian bian leh.

9) What are the requirements that you wish from your other half? *sighs at survey

10) Which type of person do you hate the most?People who don't keep their word. People who say they would do something when they didn't even bloody have it in mind. yupp.

11) What is your ambition? Nat Geo/Conde Nast journalist. or Squaresoft..

12) If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet? Point out to me baa. Just do it. Who cares if I get hurt, hah. chang tong bu ru duan tong.

13) What do you think is the most important thing in your life?hmm. family ba. :)

14) Are you a shopaholic or not? hahaha. when I start, I can't stop until I go penniless :x

15) If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change? Probably trusting others too easily baa..Believing in people too much..

16) What do you usually do at home?nua lor. surf web. blog. watch dvd.

17) Any weird habits or quirks? I'm lazy to name em..

18) What would you be doing if you were not taking this quiz?hmmm. nua. stone in front of lappy.

19) What happened at 7pm yesterday?eating dinner, i think. forgot le. :x

20) What do you feel like doing now mostly?.. I'm hungry.. And I mean it..

8 people I tag:

1. I'm

2. not

3. so

4. mean

5. so

6. I'll

7. tag

8. noone!

random ramblings

2008-06-19T09:27:00.002+08:00

BKK trip + KL pics will be uploaded this weekend!!!

haf been busy with work nowadays; so by the time i go back home, too shagged to do anything except vegetate in front of the tv. :)

was talking with KY last night.. wad she said really made sense..

it's no use to look at the past and regret on the decisions we once made..
instead, we shld look at the present and cherish what we haf right now..
becos the future looks so uncertain;
we don't know what it might hold.

:)

2008-06-10T22:18:00.002+08:00

gonna upload my BKK pics soon.. tmr night, okies? meanwhile, enjoy a short preview of a story that i wrote on my way to bkk... wrote the entire thing on the plane ride there, edited it on the way back. enjoy!

Edit: ok, blogger apparently doesn't like me. they removed all the styles that i used in the story. so i've saved the link for the story instead.

http://www.fictionpress.com/s/2515771/1/Raye_the_teenage_vampire

read and comment!!

:)

Bangkok- City of Angels

2008-06-10T09:38:00.003+08:00

hello all!!!!

jus touch down last night ard 11plus,

so v v vv shagged now.

will collate the pics of BKK trip and update soon!

and please tag!!!

til then!

2008-06-06T13:51:00.002+08:00

1. What was the connection between you and the last person that called you? he's my poly classmate!

2. Do you ever turn your cellphone off?yuppp. at night when i sleep lorr. :)

3. What happened at 10.00am today?printing stuff.

4. When did you last cry? hmm, can i not say??(:

5. What is your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter?Waffles!!!

6. What do you want in your life right now? *look away and start blushing*

7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood? hood ba. :p

8. What is the favourite thing to have on your bed?IKEA dragon soft toy :)

9. What bottoms are you wearing now? my esprit jeans.

10. What is the nicest text in your inbox says?hmm.. its a chinese msg lar, so hard to type it out here (:

11. Do you tend to make relationships complicated? LOL! erm, I have no idea...

12. Are you wearing anything that you borrowed from someone?nope, i returned the tee le..

13. What was the last movie you went to see?woah seh.. I can't remember.. Die hard??

14. What are you proud of? Mirrors.

15. What does the oldest txt msg in your inbox says?"ok then"

16. What was the last song you sang out loud? My Immortal.

17. Do you have any nicknames? What are they?bitch. slut.

18. What does the last received text msg say? Who was it from?"sigh 5 plus i think" - jason.

19. What time did you go to bed last night?11pm+

20. Are you currently happy? hmmmmmm

21. Who gives you the best advice? lol. everyone ba, i guess

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can? eeyer..

23. Who did you talk on the phone with last night?Nobody baa. (:

24. Is something bugging you right now? (:

25. What/ who was the last thing that made you laugh?haha. PY & chee seng.

26. Do you wear toe socks?Nope. But I just got black ones and white ones.

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from? my mum's office :x.

28. Have you ever had your heart broken?..

29. What annoys you in a person? hmmm. bad character ba, IMO.

30. Do you have a crush on someone? Lol.. The answer to this question is so obvious.

31. Have you ever done cocaine? !!

32. What is your room colour?Light blue.

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars? Nope.

34. Do you believe in the saying " talk is cheap? "? hmm, to a certain extent, yes.

35. Who was the last person to lay on your bed?-.- me lar

36. Who was the last person to hug you?:D

37. Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kiss?LOL. NO! :x

38. Do you have a life? *breathes

39. Have you ever thought someone died, when they really didnt? No. But my computer died dunno how many times le.

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?...

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dreams? hahaha. i dun rmbr my dreams de.

42. Last time you smiled? :D

43. Have you changed this year?.. Maybe. for better or for worse, its up to u ppl to say. :P

44. What are you listening to right now? Love Story. Fan Yi Chen.

45. Are you talking to anyone while doing this? manying.

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or close?When I just wake up, closed.

47. Is there a quote you live by? Nope..

48. Do you want someone you cant have?........................ LOL.

49. Have you ever played an instrument? got.. sec sch music lessons sure haf de ma.

50. Whats the worst idea you have had this week? lame project ideas :p

51. What do you think is the most attractive abt the opposite sex?-_-

52. Are you happy with your love life right now? :)

53. What song describe your love life? go see the mv i uploaded

54. Does the person you like know you like him/her?(: hmm.

55. Are you going to tell the person you like that you like him? hmmm.

56. Do you speak any other languages other than english? mandrin is one of them.. lazy to name.

57. Are you a blonde? no.

58. Who always makes you laugh? lol.. ermmm.

59. What are you doing tmr?BKK holiday!!.

60. Who is your best friend? alot wor. M3, FOS.

61. Who will you choose to die with? i don't want to drag people down my grave.

62. Where have you been today? holland v.

63. What games do you play often?now? none.

64. Who are you missing right now? (:

65. If you have to choose between friends and love, who will you choose? friends. definitely.

66. What are you doing right now? Doing your stupid survey duh.

67. Which primary school are you from? cat high.

68. What emotion do you like to show?:p. =.=

69. Do bestfriends mean a lot to you? DUH.

70. If you have something troubling you, what would you do? fret.

71. Who did you chat with in msn today? munying, ruth, glenn

72. Which model of phone do you use? Nokia N81..

73. Which month are you born in?novemember.

74. How are you feeling right now?sleepy.

.75. What is the time now?(GMT+8) 1445

76. Where are you now? study

77. What colour did you use to dye your hair? dark brown

78. Do you have contact lens? yupp!

79. Which country do you like the most?Japan and Switzerland

80. Do you believe in life after death?Maybe.

Instructions: Remove one question from the above, and add in your own personal question, then tag ten people in your list. List them out at the end of your post. notify them in their tagbox that he/she has been tagged.

tagging ar.er..anyone.

2008-06-05T21:12:00.002+08:00

the bag's packed!

nicky's leaving for BKK on saturday and will only be back on monday night!

cya peeps!

2008-06-04T15:01:00.002+08:00

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

Recent Updates

2008-05-30T09:45:00.002+08:00

the whole week haf been flashing by in a blur, all thanks to the "CIP" that we r supposed to do. imagine waking up at an un-earthly hour of 5.45am on a weeekday morning and a rainy one. :x it took almost all of my self-resolve to not crawl back under my comforter and snooze the morning away and jus report sick the next morning. :D

projs haf also been piling up; haf been staying back and reaching home at 7plus, 8pm for the past week or so when i usu reach home at 6.30 or thereabouts. sighh. yours truly's jogging exercise regime haf all been messed up, and so is his eating timings. imagine eating lunch at 10plus, and tea of crossaints at 2plus pm. :x

well, at least the weekend is almost here, and the best thing is, everyone got diff depts to take charge of, so i can go on my BKK trip next weekend without much worries. Hee. :) the great thing of departmentalization. and if u noticed the timing of my blog post, its 9plus right?? so, umight ask, how come nicky's blogging at such a time when he shld be in....... he ponned!!!

no lar, i'm jus blogging when i'm technically not supposed to. :) alrights, leave u guys with a pic that tj took for us during one lazy afternoon. enjoy!

2008-05-26T22:38:00.002+08:00

it's funny that how sometimes, your emotions get the better of u once u lose control of it.

Anonymous

recent events haf made nicky quite short tempered recently.

2008-05-24T12:23:00.002+08:00

heys all!!

thanks to everyone who has reviewed 'The Moment'!!

don't worry, i'm not gonna stop at the 4th chapter...

'The Moment' will not end so abruptly..

there's still the question of how Jason & Cheryl met..

and what happened after that...

keep a lookout for The Moment 5!

The Moment- 4

2008-05-21T21:28:00.002+08:00

The Moment- 4

“EXPELLED? What do you mean, EXPELLED!”

Just as Jason was having a shouting match with his former class mentor, Cheryl too, was engaged in a similar one with her father. Or, to be more precise, with the principal of her school.

“That’s all i can do in my position to protect him, Cheryl! For goodness sake, can’t you just be more mature for once, and think with your head? The Board of Directors are going to file a police report if I don’t expel Jason! And who says he cannot reapply again?” her father retorted, getting tired of his daughter’s tantrums. A moment of silence ensued between father and daughter, before it was broken by Cheryl’s quiet sobbing. Sigh…

“Oh daddy… I’m so sorry…” she sobbed, as she looked up at her father. There were more ‘worry lines’ on his forehead; his hair seemed to be grayer than usual, and he simply looked more tired and fatigued than normal. Daddy must be undergoing lotsa stress now… and instead of helping him relax, I’m alleviating his blood pressure with Jason’s problems… Regretting her initial outburst, Cheryl went forward to give her father a hug, something which she hadn’t done for a very long time. Ok, whenever she needed extra allowance.

“It’s alright, darling…” he mumbled. As the school bell rang, Cherly broke free of her father’s embrace.

“I gotta rush for my lessons now, Dad! See you in awhile!”

As Cheryl exited from the Principal’s office and headed towards her classroom, she glanced at the basketball court below her, a habit that she always partook whenever walking along the school’s hallways. As students around her rushed to their respective classrooms, she spied a familiar figure walking towards the school’s main gate in a hurry. Isn’t that Jason? Where is he going? I thought he was expelled? Whipping out her handphone, she dialed a number that was, by now, so firmly etched in her mind already.

“Dear? Where are you going in such a hurry?”

“Cheryl? Don’t bother about me anymore, just pretend that I never existed, just pretend I’m that good-for-nothing loser that I once was!”

Click.
*
Shit!

Cheryl shoved her handphone into her skirt’s pocket carelessly as she flew down the staircase leading towards the basketball court, taking the stairs two at a time. By the time she reached the basetball court, she was already breathless. Ignoring the pain at her side, she looked around. Where would he go during such a time? Cheryl knew the arcade was definitely out; they didn’t allow students into the arcade during school hours. Which means that left only two possible options- back home, or the playground at the housing estate nearby. Making a decision, she dashed across the road, not looking whether there was any incoming traffic or not.

*

Jason looked at his cell phone in dismay. Dead battery at a time like this? There was still so much he wanted to tell Cheryl; how much he loved her, how much he wanted to remain as her boyfriend, as her guardian angel. But deep down, he knew that the two of them were impossible. She was the daughter of the school’s principal. He, however, was the son of a single mother who worked odd jobs. How could they ever be together?

Brushing away tears, Jason sighed. As he reached into his pocket for a cig, nothing came out. Oh yeah. I threw the cigarette pack at Terence. Sighing heavily once again, he began to make his way to the provision shop nearby. As he prepared to cross the road, he heard a shout from behind him.

“JASON!”

Jason turned around; he saw Cheryl running across the road. What he saw in addition, to her girlfriend running across the road, made his blood run cold. A speeding car that was headed towards Cheryl.

“NOOOO!!!!!” he shouted, as he dashed towards Cheryl.

A loud ‘BANG’ reverberated in the otherwise tranquil neighbourhood.

Not too far away, Cheryl’s dad heard the bang. Fearing for the worst, he hurried out of his school.

但是我存在着我一直存在着,

和你一起的照片仍在我的手机上贴着,

爱会永远永远你说的

离开我的时候却没舍不得…

2008-05-15T22:43:00.002+08:00

sighh. wanted to write The Moment 4, but no inspiration to write anything out.. so, decided to blog abt my life's daily happenings instead. :)
attended the appreciation lunch at my company this afternoon.. nothing special.. had some dumb mtv songs quiz, but with all the ulu ulu songs. sighh.

i dunno what's wrong with me anymore...

The Moment- 3

2008-05-11T12:57:00.004+08:00

“But I don’t wanna go home yet!” Cheryl whined, as she tugged at her boyfriend’s uniform for the umpteenth time that evening. Jason simply sighed heavily, as he took another drag at the Marlboro Light he was smoking. He ruffled Cheryl’s hair playfully, which made her turn sideways towards him. Jason gave his girlfriend her favourite ‘Jason grin’, as she termed it.

“What?” he asked simply. To his horror, Cheryl’s eyes were filled with tears. Oh shit. She’s crying! Quickly stubbing his Marlboro on the pavement, he enveloped Cheryl in a tight embrace, as he whispered sweet words of comfort into her ears.

Hush hush. I’ll always be with you, no matter what, ok? No matter what other people say, what happens to us in the future, I’ll always be there for you; I’ll be your protector, I’ll be your guardian angel and protect you from all kinds of enemies, from all-

Jason’s words of reassurance were cut short by Cheryl’s kiss. Just a simple one- their lips touched each others’; soon, his tongue was trying to gain access to her mouth. Cheryl relented after a few moments- she knew that Jason relished each occasion they kissed, for it was not every time that they did so. Jason’s hands, which were wrapped around her body, now started to explore downwards, to her waist, to her-

“Hey kid! This is a public place! Mind your actions, will ya?”

The comment came from somewhere behind Cheryl. Blushing red with embarrassment, she broke free from Jason’s embrace immediately. Noticing the look of dismay on her boyfriend’s face, she smiled slightly and held his hand tightly.

“Promise me you’ll never let go of me in the future, no matter what happens?”

“Never.”

Jason thought that he would never, never ever grow tired of the perfection that was Cheryl Lim. How wrong he was.
*

The basketball court of the sports complex in Jason’s school was always deserted in the mornings before school started for the day. He had always gone there to practice his shooting every day, before getting his morning nicotine fix. This morning, however, Jason simply sat on the benches and smoked away. Before long, footsteps could be heard approaching him from behind.

“I heard that you got expelled.” The quiet voice stated simply.

Jason didn’t need to turn around to know the identity of the speaker.

“What do you want, Terence? Haven’t you interfered in my life enough?”

“One of these days, Jason, your temper and your attitude towards life is gonna get you into trouble.”

“And why do you care? It’s MY own life, it’s my own future! No one has the right to control it!”

“Your parents will-“

“Shut up about my parents when you barely know them!” Jason screamed, as he threw the cigarette pack on the floor in front of his former class mentor, before storming off.

2008-05-10T21:22:00.001+08:00

roarrr!!!!!!!!!

nicky accidentally deleted all of his pics (including chalet stay and jason's bdae celebration) on his cam!!!!!

2008-05-05T23:00:00.002+08:00

alrights. new week again, nicky's tired liao. celebrated jason's 21st bdae over the labour day holiday and boy, did we haf fun! took lotsa pics, but will haf to find a time to upload the nice ones for people out there. until then, here's one.

2008-04-26T19:43:00.006+08:00

finally it's the weekend!!

What happens when u get too bored at work...

cam-whore time, of cos! :p

a milo in the morning nvr fails to perk things up, :)

somehow this sign jus looks wrong.. :/

Mind's Cafe outing on 26/4/08

met up with tang, tricia and johnsten in the afternoon for mind's cafe.. played games, and of cos, gossiped!! some candid shots. :)

2008-04-24T22:35:00.002+08:00

was gonna blog abt some stuffs...

but a surprise letter tore me away from my blogging.

somemore its pink in colour.

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my enlistment's on the september 13th.

2008-04-22T22:23:00.003+08:00

okies. photo blogging time. :)

pics taken from singapore flyer! :p

lunch-ed at poly today cos had to take extra invitation cards for grad ceremony.. brought back memories.. all the da-bao-ing of chicken rice at canteen 1 to do proj at the underpass... all the queueing up for ages to get the jap food.. "jiu hao ji dan"..

2008-04-19T21:33:00.003+08:00

i think i jus nua-ed the whole of my saturday off day today. :P woke up at elevn, then went for breakfast at hawker centre opposite my house. did nth much today, watching smallville re-runs, a spot of ikea shopping.:) and oh yeah, the ngee ann graduation ceremony.

and meeting tang + tricia next saturday to gossip and discuss abt may/june trip. u 2, pls tag on my blog to confirm yeah, :)

2008-04-17T13:23:00.003+08:00

darn

something's wrong with nicky's lappy

so he cant access any blogs from his home

work-wise

not too bad,

nicky's colleagues are a pretty nice bunch

makes work more bearable,

and oh yeah,

they treated the whole office today for lunch.

guess wad we had?

CRYSTAL JADE!!!

yummmmmmy.

2008-04-13T23:40:00.001+08:00

was goin to blog about chalet.
but things happened.
:(
now nicky's feeling emo.
will blog abt the chalet tmr or sth

when he's feeling less-emoish.

2008-04-09T22:40:00.002+08:00

long time since i haven blogged yet... possibly a week or so.. nicky has been rather busy these few weeks. :) mondays to fridays all working... work has been monotonous, but thanks to the friendly colleagues, work is now bearable. :)

highlight of the week- NTU interview tmr... wish me luck! although its not the business/accountancy degree that i'm hoping for, but a Deg in Lierature instead, me is hoping to at least score a place in the uni first, then from there, switch to the business track!

chalet outing at friday&saturday! yay! looking forward to meeting old frens once again, sigh. time flies sia, it has been three years sicne graduation. wonder how everyone is doing??

The Moment- 2

2008-03-30T16:41:00.001+08:00

The Moment- 2

“You what?!”

“Cheryl! Come on, I have done him a great favour by not referring him to the police already! According to the law, I’m supposed to, in addition to expelling Jason, refer him to the police for… for what he has done to you!”

“…”

“Just stay at home until I get back, ok?”

“Whatever, dad, whatever.”

Cheryl’s dad sighed as he put down the phone. Ever since his vice-principal had stumbled upon Jason and his daughter- both very much naked- in a classroom together and reported the matter, Cheryl’s dad had come under much pressure from the school’s Board of Directors; although the common thing was to expel the parties involved and get the police to conduct a thorough investigation, the Board of Directors weren’t senile despite their age. They knew that if matters get blown out of proportion, it could be detrimental for the school’s reputation- this could, in turn, lead to lower student enrolments. As such, Cheryl’s dad, being the school’s principal, acted as he should. He had gone according to his school’s rules and regulations and expelled Jason, although he hadn’t gone so far as to make an official police investigation. After all, Cheryl is still his daughter.

What happened to that sweet, angelic little girl that I once knew…?

Cheryl muttered a swear word as she shoved her handphone into her imitation handbag- bought at Bugis Village for a mere $23- furiously. She tried dialing Jason’s handphone number; the line was engaged. “God-damn it. Where on earth is he?” she thought, as she reached his voicemail for the umpteenth time. As Cheryl looked at the neo-print that she took with Jason, an idea struck in her mind. Snapping her handbag shut, she rushed out of her Sixth Avenue terrace house.

Love. It makes even the most intelligent person, the cleverest and smartest person on Earth, dumb sometimes.

The arcade at the basement level of the Bugis Junction shopping complex wasn’t too crowded at that time of the day- it was only in the early hours of the afternoon, and most school students weren’t allowed entry yet. Cheryl looked around for her blonde haired, roguish-looking, cigarette-smoking boyfriend; she spotted him almost immediately. He was shooting hoops at the basketball machine- and missing the target for most of his shots.

“Darling.” She called out. Perhaps it was the din in the arcade that was too noisy for him to hear. Or maybe Jason was pretending not to hear her. Either way, he ignored Cheryl. She sighed, and walked over beside him.

“Darling. Darling!” she shouted, pulling at his uniform, which was, by now, tucked out in the most untidy fashion. His bag was strewn without much care, on the floor beside him. A half-empty pack of cigarettes was placed on the basketball machine, his anime-designed lighter placed beside it. He ignored her continuous tugging, and continued throwing the basketballs, each shot getting further and further away from the hoop that he was supposed to be aiming at. Cheryl didn’t stop at her relentless tugging.

What happens when you find out that you stand to lose every thing in the name of love?

Jason stood in front of the basketball machine, not moving, even as the machine flashed the words ‘Game Over’ repeatedly. Without warning, he turned abruptly sideways, and hugged Cheryl tightly.

“Cheryl!” he muttered, as he teared openly.

“Darling…” she whispered, patting her boyfriend softly on his shoulder. Despite his rough looking exterior, Cheryl knew that Jason, like all the other sixteen year olds his age, was just a softie beneath his tough exterior.

Sometimes, it just takes a little bit of TLC to iron out everything.

2008-03-23T15:18:00.005+08:00

highly overdue M3 outing finally took place. venue was at settler's cafe in dhoby ghaut.. chiong-ed down after work on friday. :)

had fun that day. :)

end of part 1 of my blog entry.. will be abit long.. :)

haf been goin to xinwang for two saturdays in a row le... tj, fresh from his, erm, ** with blurrie, has pulled me along to go to the cineleisure outlet to bio a certain someone. and that includes talking to her. twice. and she only said 5 words to him in total. welllllll.

what we had ordered.. the custard buns very delish... har gao small like dunno wad.

the black sesame dessert. although it's supposed to be black, th real thing looks like grey cement when it came to our table. =.=

can see the gal?? thats the xinwang whom tj is having a crush on. :)

end of part two... ending soon...

our latest sojourn to xinwang... the time when she said 5 words to tj..

TJ:" Today very busy hor."
th gal:"Dui ah."
TJ:"Oh, Good Friday ma"
the gal:"Holiday ma"

i was trying my best not to burst out laughing in front of them. :)

2008-03-18T15:17:00.001+08:00

almost tea break now at work..
933 played alot of emo songs today...
made me think abt my past...
i was soo foolish last time...
didn't treasure what i had in the past...
and now
i can only regret wad i used to have in the past...
and the attachment at shanghai...
only made matters worse...
hiaz...

if i could turn back time.. will we be together still??

2008-03-17T22:51:00.003+08:00

ROARRR

was counting my expected pay for march.. actually quite happy de.. until mum reminded me mus minus 20% for my cpf. &^&%$. still tot of saving up abit, then go and splurge the rest on new clothes, psp, tennis, bowling outings. darn. mus scale down on all these liao.

anyways. work has been pretty boring so far. stupid office desktop so freaking slow can. takes forever to load/generate one god-damn report. then i ended up watching videos on youtube. heng my cubicle at e far end of the office. not easy for ppl to see me. :) but the comments the reports haf quite funny though.

weekends and fridays nights all used up for goin out with frens liao. haf lotsa pics to upload; will upload over the long good friday weekend. nowadays, when i get home, i jus laze on the couch and watch tv. :)

alrights. shall sign off now. til my next update.

*The Moment will be resumed shortly.

The Moment- 1

2008-03-11T23:54:00.002+08:00

The Moment- 1

Jason took a glance at the iron-wrought gates, perhaps a second longer than he had wanted to. After all, it would be the last time when he would walk through those gates for a very long time. Scenes from his past flashed in his mind like a silent movie as he traced the intricate designs on the gate; the many mornings when he had clambered over it hurriedly to the point of almost tearing his uniform in a bid to escape detention for being late; the equally numerous afternoons when he had, along with his gang of friends, clambered over it once again, this time, in the opposite direction, with their Discipline Master hot on their heels.

Brushing away the solitary tear that had started to form and threatened to flow down his cheek, Jason adjusted his uniform, and walked slowly towards the Grand Hall, taking in all of the sights and sounds of his surroundings. The sounds of his juniors enjoying their time kicking a soccer ball in the pitch, the slightly pungent odour of the ammonia coming from the laboratories just to the right of him, the feeling of the wind as it blew against his cheeks, his face and his entire body.

It just wasn’t fair. Everything didn’t have to end like that. Not when everything was just starting to be alright!

“Sit down, Jason. The principal will call you in shortly.” The receptionist informed him, as Jason took a seat outside the room. The receptionist looked at Jason sadly, and sighed loudly. He looked up at her; a face of pity and worry was all over her otherwise attractive face. Jason knew what was going through her mind; it was what everyone said about him, all his parents, his aunts, his uncles, his cousins, everyone. How can such a promising young child be reduced to such a sorry state today?

“Jason, the principal is ready to see you now.” To the receptionist, it sounded almost routine. To Jason, it was a death sentence. Despite his cool and roguish exterior, Jason’s interior was just like any other sixteen year old in his school, frightened, worried, confused, and of course, ever-searching for his true identity; for what he was going to become in the future. That is, if he still had a future after everything.

Love can be kind, like the guardian angel that watches above us, silent in whatever is being done. Love can also be merciless and evil, like the devil who kills without mercy.

Nothing had changed in the principal’s office since Jason’s previous visit. That occasion, he had been caught fighting in the classroom with another student from a neighbouring class; the reason, as Jason so wittily put it, was because we had our own differences. Now, he was being brought in for a totally different reason. Even Jason himself wished he hadn’t been so careless; he wished he hadn’t been so naïve, so stupid, so foolish.

“Jason. How many times have you been here already, since the start of the school term?”

“Six, sir.”

“On what grounds?”

“Two times for fighting, three times cos of defiancy, once for truancy.”

The principal sighed. He was getting too tired for all these problem kids already. But this time, Jason had gone too far.

“Do you have any idea what the consequences would be for what you’ve done?”

Jason did not reply this time. All his witty remarks; all his well-thought out excuses would not work this time. Sighing heavily once again, the principal continued.

“Jason. You were caught with Cheryl in a classroom last night, and you were both naked! Do you seriously have ANY idea on what you guys were up to?!”

“Sir, we were just having fun-“

“Fun can be carried out in other ways, other methods! I knew you are young; you are just reaching puberty, but this, this is simply ridiculous!”

“Sir, I can explain, it was the alcohol-“

“I don’t want to listen to your excuses anymore!”

“Sir, please, just one more chance-“

“Jason, as of now, you are officially not a student of my school.”

晴天劈厉

2008-03-10T18:18:00.001+08:00

晴天劈厉!!!

went for my pre-ns medical screening check-up today.

PES A.

2008-03-04T23:20:00.003+08:00

started my work le.. admin assistant at some place in buona vista.. nature of job doesn't allow me to divulge where i work exactly and stuff, but to me, aiya, all that secrecy for nothing lorx. really. its not as if my job allows me to come across highly confidential stuff anyways. :p goin for smu open house this weekend though. :) the job makes me wish for the wekkend to come quickly. :p

2008-02-28T23:20:00.009+08:00

phwoar. after a few days of inactivity, i finally met up with phoebe, long time MJ fren, for a highly-overdue day out at sentosa. 12 hrs straight, ok.

930am- breakfast at harbourfornt's mac, then off to sentosa by sentosa express.

1st stop- siloso beach!! camwhored at the siloso sign, then went to play beach volleyball. CMI lar, phoebe, haha :P

then... took the super slowwwww tram to our next stop! (another beach lar. haha. 2 also wanna tan until dark dark. but ystd sun wasn't so gd though, keep hiding in clouds de.)

2nd stop- Palawan beach. haha. the main reason we came here is because of the bridge. long time since i last came to this bridge le, last time since i came was with ***...

so, not too much time spent there... continued to next stop, the last and most ulu beach, tanjong beach. quietest of all 3, so there wasn't too many people there. sun was scorching hot by then, so i took a dip in the sea. woah. shiok sia. but phoebe didn't go into the pool- she instead sun-tanned. haha. dun later sun tan until got zhou wen hor, :p

sun-tanned de sun-tan, swim de swim, we finaly showered and lunch-ed at koufu foodcourt, before our next stop.

merlion- took bus to merlion. eee. so black black and somemore mus pay $8. sians. so i tot got sijori wondergolf there play golf. we walked for quite abit, walk up staircase, walk down slope, then finally reach the place. end up, like lao kok kok liddat, goin to close down any moment. sian half. poor phoebe walk with me up and down. wuahahaha. told u le, i nvr take geography in sec sch so got no sense of direction. :D

end up took open top double decker bus go back beach station to transfer to sentosa express back to harbourfront. on the way, we were bored, so .....

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we decided to camwhore!!

kk, so we missed our stop twice after all our cam-whoring. lolx. after reaching back to harbourfront, we spent time around marin bay area.. here's where we went..

needs no intro... although got nothing much dere...

this atas fountain outside milennia walk.. jus to let u noe, we had to take out slippers and walk barefoot into the fountain area so to take the pic.. hee. :p

well. thats all for our day. haha. til tj's bdae celebration this coming sat, so long!

2008-02-21T22:40:00.010+08:00

Photo blogging time... this was taken during my bukit timah hill hike on last friday... just after Valentime's day somemore.

no feeding of monkeys.. saw alot of them though, scampering around the road

a monkey climbing halfway up the tree..

the steep slope up.. can see tang in the distance, wearing green...

the road to nowhere.. it ends off with a cliff edge..

and of course. a nice movie to end off the tiring day. shakesphere's Romeo & Juliet with Leonardo di caprio!

uni application day on saturday!
applied for biz admin courses in nus,
accountancy in ntu...

2008-02-21T11:56:00.004+08:00

exactly a week since i last updated.. been rather busy for the past week or so... lucky got my new nokia n81 and the lifeblog feature help me keep track of all the nonsense that i've done.. our story ends here.....

*edit at 11.59am: shit. i forgot my desktop haven install the nokia program yet. which means i cant upload pics from my phone to the dektop. shit. shall upload the pics some other day then. tmr. :P and oh yeah, tmr goin for interview at buona vista liao. heng timing not too early, 10.45am. and L movie outing on saturday!

our story ends here...

2008-02-14T19:00:00.002+08:00

it is thine period of the year again..
as hot-blooded males pursue their fair maiden targets..
armed with bouquets of fresh red roses,
artfully wrapped boxes of chocolates,
and cute little teddies...
o valentine o valentine
why hath thou forsaken me?

2008-02-12T16:55:00.001+08:00

came across this entry from a fren's blog.. it touched me alot... and reflects my feelings towards a certain someone now... hopefully that person noes it yea...

曾經有一份至真的愛情擺在我面前，

但是我沒有去珍惜。

直到沒了才來後悔莫及。

塵世間最痛苦的莫過于此。

如果天可以給我一個机會回頭的話，

我會對你說 “我愛你“ 。

如果要在這份愛加上一個期限，

我希望是。。。。一萬年。。。

2008-02-11T19:00:00.000+08:00

bought new fone le..
nokia n81...
not too bad...
nicky loves it alot.
:)

spending my days gym-ing,
swimming,
and of course,
slacking at home.
:)
will be looking out for any parttime jobs..
so,
if u peeps noe of any lobangs,
dun forget abt me hor!
:)

2008-02-09T21:57:00.000+08:00

*sweeps all dust away..

super long time since i last blogged...
well, i'm finally back home already..
haf spent the last week slacking, getting ready for cny, and of course,. cny itself..

2007-10-17T21:50:00.000+08:00

brrrrr... the weather these few days haf been turning cold le.. so this is autumn.. sth that i dont get to eperience back in sgp... soon i'll be wearing my scarf to work le, i tell u.

haven been blogging for the past few weeks or so due to my internet connection.. so sorry to ppl who haf been reading my blog... jus to let u guys noe, i'm in the cyber cafe now, blogging. pity i didnt bring along a nice warm cup of milo or hot tea now sia, my hands are like, freezing le.. ==

hmm.. there's some changes to the human resources in the bar nowadays.. i dont get my both weekends off le... i'm now having one weekday and weekend off.. not as good as i tot it was... but then again, im thinkng ofmoving to anohter food station or sth le.... am starting to feel sian there liao..

anyways, only 3 months and 13 more days to go befoer my oiap oficailly ends...hiaaz... it doesnt seem to be that long, but then again, it doesnt seem to be all that short either. haf already planned on what to do after touching down in sgp on feb 2nd. i wanna go hawker centre at old airport road/east coast hawker centre and eat satay, hokkien mee, sugar cane juice, carrot cake!! haha. i'm starting to miss all the local foods here. although the restaurant does haf an indian corner which sells things like satay, nasi goreng and stuff liddat. they even haf laksa. i tried b4 le, but nah, it doesnt taste like thereal thing back home.

haf went to raffles city shanghai. there's this prima taste restaurant that sells singaporean food, like hainanese chicken rice. haven went to try it yet, cos its like really expensive. dunno if i shld go and try it anot. any suggestions?

and oh, happy birthday to these people. sorrie i cant wish u guys in person. :)

october 17- aaron. happy 18th! congrats, u can now watch M18 movies! hee. :p
october 20- eugene. happy 21st! haha, already so OLD le!!! LOL.

2007-10-01T20:23:00.000+08:00

back to my blogging once again! yup, for readers of my blog, i have found this cyber cafe just downstairs my apartment where i'm staying, which charges really cheap rates, much much cheaper than back in sgp. so yeap, i'm sure to come to this place more often than not during my four months of stay here!

time flies; it's alr been a month since my oiap begun. what has begun on a really bad start is now, hopefully, turning and beocming something that is more bright and cheery. have found a catholic church too- although its in puxi side, but still, its a place that i feel comfortable in- at least i noe that there's some quiet place for me to retreat to when the going gets tough. :)

and oh, my return's flight on the 3rd of feb; i shld get to sgp around the wee hours of sunday morning. the first thing i'm gonna do is to have this feast at the hawker centre in east coast road or in old airport road sia- there are like, practically noooo hawker centres in shanghai!! yes, u heard me alright, there are absolutely no hakwer centres here! mebbe its becos the whole place is filled with little nieghbourhood "cafes" which sell snacks and light food and zhi char kinda food, so there's no need for hakwer centres. not that i'm complaining though, :)

went to this pub/bar/restaruant last night with kevin; had a buffet dinner for only 88RMB/pax. shhh. i'm not supposed to go spending my money on this kinda stuff though, my mum's probably gonna kill me if she ever finds out that i spend money on this kinda stuff. haha. buyt the food's not too bad; they serve western food like chops and stuff, pretty good value. now that's u cant find in sgp. defintiely.

winter's not here in shanghai yet; the weather in the day time are like sgp's; hot, humid. so sian. darn.

well, that's all from me now. til next time i blog again.

:)

2007-09-12T13:24:00.000+08:00

i can finally blog now!
darn the great firewall of china.
but i cant view my own blog.
>.<
am slowly adapting to life here
washing my own laundry
getting my own foodstufss and of course,
mineral water!
i'm missing home already
missing all the simple luxuries that i had before
hiaz
sometimes i wonder
was my decision to go for this oiap
a hasty one?

aniwaes
there's thisgreat starbucks outlet near my workplace
it overlooks the riverside and everything
might be heading there to de-stress one of these days
well
going for lunch
will blog again!

2007-08-29T22:12:00.000+08:00

24 hours more...
the luggage are all packed...
money changed...
air tix booked and confirmed...
farewell dinners all done with...

Shanghai, here i come!